written for someone I know 11/28/18
I feel your pain and despair
I hear you asking me if I even care
How could I give her to you and quickly take her away?
Why I couldn’t just perform a miracle and just let her stay?
I wish I could explain the reasons why I took her home
That I would never want you to feel so alone
That even though I feel so far away
I am with you each and every moment of the day
I want you to know she went straight into my arms and I’m holding her for you
I’m showing her all the things you will one day see too
I know it doesn’t at all seem fair
That I would take her with me instead of with you there
I numbered every hair on her head before she was formed in your womb
Knowing that I would take her home so soon
I promise I didn’t take her to cause you pain in your heart
To take her with me before her life would even start
If I could make it so you didn’t have to feel this pain I would
If I could let you know you are understood
If I could explain that there’s pain in this life I can’t always keep from you
No matter how bad I wanted to
That you live in this fallen world that has evil and imperfection
and sometimes the enemy makes devastating interjections
But what he intends for evil, I can use for good on this earth
I can show others my love through her immeasurable worth
I can bring you back to me and for you to find meaning in this
To remind you there’s not a moment of your life I will miss
For you to feel close to me, because it makes you feel closer to her
For you to know I will walk with you for all you have to endure
I promise I didn’t take her from you and it was never my plan
I promise one day you will understand
Though I didn’t take her, I received her in into heaven with me
There’s no pain or evil to see
It’s the perfect life here I intended for you
I will hold her for you until the day you come home to meet me too
I know you love her more than words could show
I love her too, more than you could even know
I know there’s so many things you wanted to do
To hold her, nurse her and watch her coo
I feel that pain you feel inside your heart
I know right now it’s tearing you apart
I promise you will be able to look back and find meaning with all that you are feeling
That her little life had a purpose for healing
That her love and loss will bring you together
That she will know her mother’s love and touch forever
That even though you are separated by this earth for now
That I’m here for you for as long as you allow
That it’s ok to be mad at me ask why
That I will wipe every tear you cry
Out of all the mothers in this world, I chose you to love and carry her while she grew here
To love and mourn for her without answers that are clear
I promise she was never alone
From the time I place her in your womb until I took her home
Stay close with me while enduring this pain that is tearing you apart
I will over time mend your broken heart
I love you and want you see what she sees here
That you have a future that is clear
There’s pain for her loss that will never quite go away
But what she brought to this world will always stay
I love you my child and in this pain want you to feel free
There are things in this life that you just can’t see
I promise I have a reason for everything under the sun
From the beginning until your time here is done
I want you to know she’s safe in my arms full of love
When you miss her, always look above
You will feel my love and presence with her there
You will feel it in your prayers
I had a plan for her before this began
She will be with me here waiting until the day she meets you again 💗 Written through prayer and love by Jennifer Lyn Silver on 11/28/18
Honest Journey 